-A Moment For Strong People-

I try very hard to keep an emotional balance while dealing with my life. It is very hard.  And every few weeks or months, I crack.  It can take a song, a silent pause, someone saying the wrong thing, and I just start to cry...  usually it ends up while riding in car, left to my thoughts, or on hold for the twentieth time with a doctor's office.

Not only does the pain of RSD slowly wear me down, many other factors effect me as well. 
I am not talking about the depression...  I know depression, I've been to that dark place before...  what  I'm talking about those moments, after weeks of restless nights, endless doctor visits, people not understanding, that generally were one down...  The general stress in my life, that I talk only to four or five people in person about, but no one seems to truly understand.
I try very hard to keep an external shell of what I consider to be 'strong'.  I have to take care of my son.  I have a loving family.  I know complaining about my pain all day is just as stressful on them as it is to me. 
But ever now and then the dam needs breaks, and I just cry.  Whether there is a reason or not, I will cry for at least a good 10 minutes to an hour... and it feels so good.  Whether I cry in the car, or alone in the shower, sometimes one just needs to break down the wall and let it all go.

If you have no one to talk to, don't rely solely on online support groups.  Human contact is very important.  Get out as much as you can, especially with Fall and the holidays approaching.  Even if it is just going to your local library, go get some books to read to brighten your spirits, and while you are there talk to your librarians. Ask them if they know of any good books. And if need be, find a therapist if you do not already have one.  I have two (not the two people I was referring too).